It’s quite apt that my last post was called “Seeking Change”. This post came out almost a year ago. To be perfectly honest for those who genuinely read my posts, I lost motivation and inspiration for this blog. When I started ‘The Everyday Look’ about 3 years ago, I was enthusiastic, driven and excited about this dream I had – this dream of being a fashion blogger. My undying love for clothes, shoes and accessories inspired me to coax my then boyfriend, now husband, to shoot me every weekend and I would post once a week, without fail. It’s safe to say I’m not the person I was 3 years ago. Hell, I’m not even the same person I was one year ago!
There comes this time in everyone’s life, this time to grow up, to accept responsibility, to really provide for your family in every way possible – emotional, financial, psychological. There’s a burden in these responsibilities – it hardens you, it pushes you, it questions your priorities in life. As I lie in bed writing this post, I can feel the surge of emotions as I look back at the past year – a year of learning. It’s been one of the best years of my life – mentally and physically fulfilling. This past year has been a year I’ve learned and found comfort in the fact that I will always be a work in progress; that family always comes first; that loving yourself is truly an art; that travel is food for the soul and most importantly I’ve learnt that every now and then you have to stop, breathe and take it all in. It’s in those moments of solitude and self reflection that you truly find your purpose, you see just a little bit clearer who you are and what you want from life.
I have realized one thing – I don’t want to be a fashion blogger. No, my love for fashion hasn’t gone anywhere. But I have found love in a lot of things beyond fashion. I’ve found love in travel, in food, in fitness. Coming to a new country, setting up a home for the first time, working in a new environment surrounded by new people, not having the comfort of easy, accessible friendship has been quite a change in space for me. While it hasn’t been easy and to some extent I’m still finding my space, this change has really propelled me to ask myself some questions that every job interviewer asks – where do you see yourself in 3,4,5 years? I feel like this is the best time of my life – I have the opportunity to travel to beautiful places, to meet incredible spirited people, to ever so often put myself in an uncomfortable situation and push my limits, to learn new things. I want to make the best of this time and I don’t want to spend my time doing things that don’t give me a satiated sense of purpose. I want to write and post about things that inspire me – not to post a look. I’ve also come to terms with the fact that this blog for me is about me, not to please other people or to find more followers. I’m happy with where I am but also excited about the future – there are dreams to fulfill, journeys to embark on, relationships to build!
I hope you continue to be a part of my journey 🙂 See you soon with another post!!
Location Bali, Indonesia
Photos by Shashank Kapur